COLLISION with eBay
BLAME IT ENTIRELY ON BILL MILLER!!!!
I'd heard of eBay, of course. Every living creature on the planet,
except maybe pygmies in rain forests and cloistered monks, knows
about eBay. I'd just never been there. Now I have, and it's
all Bill Miller's fault. [Note this psychological transaction.
We will return to it when we get to Addiction
series is dedicated to Bill. He is unfailingly inspiring, even
when he doesn't know it!
you've not heard of him, Bill Miller is the Native American
musician and artist pictured above. I like his music so much
that I have a page devoted to him on this site. (BILL
MILLER'S PAGE) In addition to being an internationally
acclaimed musician and winner of 5 Native American Music Awards
in 1999, the man paints. Last spring, BILL
MILLER'S OFFICIAL WEBSITE announced that he was going
to AUCTION ONE OF HIS PAINTINGS ON eBay!!! WOW!!! They
even had the painting displayed on the site. It was lovely!
Lovely! By purest chance, I have the perfect spot for it in
my living room! I slid into Bill's auction when it was half
over, finding it easily by getting on eBay.com and typing "Bill Miller" into the search box. There
couldn't afford the starting bid. I vowed to keep watching.
Maybe they'd lower it. Maybe Bill would call me up and
just give it to me. You never know. I sat facing Bill's
painting on my computer screen, contemplating. Thinking deep
thoughts, like, "Does eBay know they have a typo in their
name?" It was a simple step to, "I wonder what other
stuff eBay has for sale?" I typed something into the search
box and clicked.
In a nanosecond,
found myself face to screen with 14 single spaced pages of listings
of turquoise and silver jewelry. Mostly Native American silver
and turquoise. I love this stuff, currently owning several
lifetimes' supply. "Might as well take a peek...."
Hours later, when I had bid on hundreds of beautiful objects
I couldn't afford and didn't need, I realized that I was in
what is known as a "red light area" in Weight Watchers'
parlance. (Except they talk about "red light foods".)
I was in
big trouble. My pesky lower chakras were really STIRRED UP!!!
Chakras are real centers of energy in your body. If they dissected
you, they wouldn't find them, but they're real. I know. I could
feel mine pulsating. My lower chakras, pertaining to lust and
greed, were flaming. Exploding! I closed my eyes and turquoise
and silver roadrunners ran across my interior darkness.
NATIVE AMERICAN CORAL AND SILVER BRACELET
represents extreme temptation to me.
Offered on eBay by:
My writing output, normally an impressive 12 to 27 pages a day,
dropped to 4 or 5, then quit. This bothered me, as I'm in the
final pages of writing the sequel to my first book. It also
bothered my agent. And my family. I couldn't help it: The
Force had me.
I woke up each morning, ran to my computer and checked our website
stats. We do not have a counter on our site because we wish
to discourage the obsession with numbers and achievement that
permeates our society. However, our webhost has a handy feature
where we can go in and get the names and phone numbers of everyone
who hits on us. Dress sizes. Kid's birthdays. No, not quite,
but almost... No. Just teasing. Really. Relax. But our stats
page shows far more than a counter. On a pre-eBay morn, I'd
bound downstairs, run to my computer and see how our site did
the day before. Then I'd answer emergency e-mails from my kids,
such as "Mom, I'm stranded in New York City... I don't
have any money... What should I do?" Pre-eBay, I was concerned
with events that materially impacted my own life and well
being, in other words.
more, "Oh, my God! Did that auction close? Did I get that
16" moose-shaped, maybe-silver bolo tie? I hope so/not!"
My head hurt from hours of looking at the computer monitor.
My shoulders were stiff. I got less exercise. Was crabby. Sleep
deprived. But I was learning fast. I realized a couple of days
in that eBay has a handy click-on feature that gives you that
day's new auctions first. So, you find your favorite (most addictive)
area, spend a few dozen hours the first day looking at absolutely
everything. You place your bids. From then on, all you have
to do is review the new stuff every day and up your bids as
needed. You can satisfy your addiction with a minimal time commitment.
signed up with a service that lets me use my credit card on-line!
Zuni inlaid pin was sold on eBay by howlingdogtrader,
"the Neiman's of eBay".
I was in
bad shape. Possessed, some might say. I knew the demon that
drives old ladies to spend their last days in smoky casinos,
playing bingo. It had me! What could I do? I did the
only thing a meditator could do. I came down early one morning,
shaking slightly. Instead of hitting the computer, I took my
prescribed meditation posture in my customary meditation chair.
I went inside as deeply as I could. (Which wasn't too deep.
An auction was closing.) I prayed to my spiritual ancestors,
real ancestors, teachers, anything in/out there: "PLEASE!
HELP ME!" I was actually praying that I would get both
the amber & silver necklace and the old pawn silver bracelet.
And the three piece watch band, belt buckle and ring set for
my husband's birthday.
I had a
genuine spiritual experience: My old meditation teacher, who's
been dead for 18 years, appeared before me shouting, "FREEDOM
FOLLOWS RENUNCIATION!!!!" Which means, "If something
is getting in the way of your spiritual development, GIVE IT
UP." I was also given specific instructions: No eBay until
5 the next night. My God! Over 24 hours of abstinence! The rest
wasn't too rough: At 5 PM the next day, I could check my bids,
and check out the new stuff. (3 new single spaced pages every
day. In turquoise jewelry alone!!!) I could bid for some
new stuff! Get that squash blossom necklace I've barely lived
without for 55 years. But not until 5 the next day. Also, I
was not supposed to think about eBay, or talk
about it. Write? My teacher didn't say anything about writing
in his intra-psychic appearance. Besides, this is a public service.
More instructions: If I made it through the initial abstinence
period, I could continue to check in with eBay once a day and
bid in a controlled fashion. Otherwise, I'd have to give it
up FOREVER. Whoa.
is rough. But still... my teacher could have said, "If
you bid again, you have to lie on a bed of nails. Run over hot
coals. Do hatha yoga until you turn into a pretzel" Could
have been worse. (It was worse, as it turned out.)
else my teacher said kept coming back: TURN YOUR DIFFICULTIES
INTO NECTAR." Not just turn life's lemons into lemonade":
go all the way to nectar. Nectar: The sweet elixir of life.
Ambrosia. Sustenance. Turn your difficulties into something
that nourishes, sustains and delights you. Something delicious
and irresistible. Nectar.
when I got the idea for these articles.
OF CORAL AND SILVER NAJA
and Silver Native American Squash Blossom Necklace
Isn't it lovely?